Operation: Better Myself (An Update)

Hello world!
 If you watch my YouTube videos then you might know that this year I'm experimenting with a plan to better myself (by effectively making 2017 my bitch.) For each of the next 12 months, I have one goal that I intend to focus on in the hopes that by the end of that month, it will become something of a habit! For January my focus was super innovative and something you probably never expected: health and fitness! *dripping in sarcasm* And for February the focus was self care. Some of you were asking if I'd be doing updates on how the goals were going and I thought this was a really great idea! I know writing down my progress will definitely keep me in check and perhaps it can even help some of you to stay motivated if you're working on any goals yourself! So for anyone curious, here is a breakdown of my progress, by month, so far! :) 

January- Health and Fitness

Staying true to this goal throughout January was pretty easy at first, as I was living at a Yoga Retreat in Costa Rica where all of my meals were vegan and vegetarian (*cough* and cooked for me *cough.*) Was it a bit of a cop out to choose to work on this goal when I knew it wouldn't be difficult there? Perhaps... BUT! Most people often begin to derail after things get too difficult, so I figured easing my way into things wouldn't be so bad! Every morning I woke up with the sun, started the day with a yoga class and pigged out on all the healthy and delicious meals I wanted! It was a dream! And by the end of the month I basically felt like a unicorn. I noticed my skin breaking out a little, which I attributed to the detoxification my body was most likely going through but for the most part, all that sun, fruit, and exercise was doing me a world of good! 

And then I went home.

 Things got A LOT more difficult once I was back in my natural habitat. As a yoga instructor, I was still able to maintain a pretty healthy balance of exercise (and laziness hehe), but my relationship with food became a struggle. First off, I have a HUGE sweet tooth. Always have and I imagine I always will. But since it was once again my own responsibility to prepare all my meals, it began to feel very tedious very quickly and I found myself just going for whatever was easy as opposed to healthy. But I hated the way I was beginning to feel. I was constantly sleepy, my mind felt a lot less sharp and all around, I didn't feel quite as bright as I did while in Costa Rica. I also IMMEDIATELY slipped back into terrible habits of staying up WAY too late, spending way too much time on the computer, etc. (Goodbye Veronica the Unicorn.) I really didn't like how fast I was to throw all that magic away! Because that was not the point of this experiment! I didn't want to work on something for 30 days and just let it go come the first of the next month! No, these things were supposed to build upon each other! 

So in short, I learned a valuable lesson! This wasn't going to be as easy as perhaps I'd bargained for. These goals are still going to take time, effort and mindfulness in order to achieve them the way I'd hoped! Which is perfectly okay! I'm not giving up and getting down on myself! After feeling crappy for so many weeks after returning home, I wanted to chase that "sparkly" feeling, if you will, I felt in Costa Rica so I'm still currently making little changes and doing my best to make healthy choices as much as possible! It might not have been a cake walk (...poor choice of words?) to stay consistent, but I'm so glad I did have that month to show me how I'd like to keep feeling for the rest of this year and hopefully the rest of my life! 

February- Self Care
Now this was a month I was very excited for! A whole month that I could dedicate to pampering myself and not feel guilty for it? Yes please! But I suddenly discovered something I never expected; this goal was difficult too! I actually had to put in EFFORT to relax! I had no clue I was so much of a workaholic! See, my plan was to focus on two things: taking a long hot bath once a week, and staying really consistent with my skincare (and eventually I'd obviously transform into the glowing goddess that's been hiding beneath under eye circles and dry, neglected pores.) All of this sounds magical right?! That's what I thought! But whenever it was time for me to take my long awaited bath, or use one of my face masks, I noticed that I'd be so wrapped up in my work that I'd keep putting it off for an hour, and then another... and then another until eventually I'd just say "eh, I'll do it tomorrow." And sometimes it would be days before I actually sat down and forced myself to do it! It sounds so crazy that I had to convince myself into something as glorious as relaxing with some bath bombs but there I was, too wound up from daily life to even remember how to chill out! 
apparently not Jamie Lee Curtis, apparently not.

Nonetheless, if I'm going to be honest about my shortcomings then oh by gosh, by golly I'm going to be honest about my achievements too and say that I did manage to EVENTUALLY take my bath at least once a week! And it's a ritual that I enjoyed so much, that I've still managed to take baths pretty frequently since then! I did pay very close attention to my skin (not impeccable attention but much better than usual and that's the goal right?) and after a while, I genuinely began to look forward to grabbing one of those face masks and giving my epidermis a little love! I realized that this was something I used to do all the time in High School and I missed having such great motivation and care for myself, not to mention it shocked me that somewhere along the way I'd lost track of that!
Perhaps the most exciting result of all this consistency (however inconsistent it was...) was that in at least one little way, my plan kind of worked! I now have a pretty great routine each night; after I brush my teeth, I cleanse, tone and moisturize my skin before bed and I genuinely notice a fabulous difference! I've been feeling so much more radiant and glowy! And I now love to sit in the bath WITH a face mask on and just zen out. Evidently, for a person like me, forcing myself to really find time for self love is so important because otherwise, it just won't happen! And it's crazy how I teach yoga and make that space for others to "zen out" but then I can't do it myself!
As a creative, passionate and quite naturally energetic person, finding those little moments to sit down and let the world fall away are so necessary for more than my exterior; they're vital for my mental health! I realize that now and it feels awesome to form that relationship with myself! Once again, the goal for me was never perfection, but rather to learn more about myself and my habits, and hopefully create more balance within my life! These changes might seem small and insignificant but for me, they're really exciting and I'm so proud to see my growth, no matter how slow it might be! So wish me luck for the next couple of months! March is all about selflessness and self control and I'm not totally sure what April will bring yet! But stay tuned, and good luck to you as on your journey through life! Feel free to let me know whatever progress you might be making as well and just know that even failures are successes in disguise! Until next time everyone!  :)

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